Never Claim

For me, the battle with Multiple Sclerosis is non-stop. I have read many accounts where people suffering from MS claim that "it never interferes" with anything, or they "hardly even know it's there." Really? Ever? My personal favorite is when they "never even knew" they had it. How? How do people not know? Mine never leaves; it persistently pings my nerves. In fact, it is never- (or nerve-) ending (depending on perspective), always unpredictable, and often debilitating. The burning spikes of needle tips searing through my nerves constantly remind me of its existence.

The past few days, my cognitive functions decided to settle inside a blanket of thick fog, and my activity level has been severely hindered since my muscles feel trapped in cylindars of lead, laced with shards of metal. Any silver lining is that maneuvering the stairs is highly entertaining for my family to witness; they claim I am never a dull moment.

The majority of my energy is spent mentally pushing my way through the cognitive fog and incredible pain, in order to see beyond all physical distractions, so I can focus in the real world. This task is never simple. Existing is often exhausting. I can never claim that MS never consumes me.